I wonder how many blogs start on New Year’s Day every
year. I guess that makes me sort of a cliché,
because here I am. Truth is, my
resolution isn’t quite to start and maintain a blog- not entirely, anyway. For me, 2014 is all about trust. I am going to trust myself. A lot of the time, I feel like I have an
instinct- you can think of it in any way you want to, either God has put
something on my heart or the universe knocks it through my head or my
prefrontal cortex ignites a feeling in my gut.
Whatever. Point is; I spend a lot
of time just feeling things. Sometimes I get the urge to say something to
someone, sometimes I feel like I need to do something. The circumstances vary, but many of those
occasions have one thing in common: fear.
Sometimes, it is terrifying,
just having a sudden feeling that something is absolutely right or what you
should be doing, especially if you don’t know why. Often, I ignore my instinct because I’m
afraid: either afraid of the way it’ll work out or afraid of the way people
will react or afraid of how it will change things, you name it. Fear stops me from doing a lot of things.
This year, that changes.
My resolution this year is to trust myself, to trust that gut
instinct. To trust that I am perceptive
to what the Lord will put on my heart; trusting that I know what weighs on my
soul. Basically, I am going to do what
feels right. That may not always be
easy, and I know that. But I’m going to
do it. One day, one thing, one step at a
time. The first step is taking you-
whoever you are- along with me.
It’s been on my mind for a long time, to start a blog and
share some of my story. Ultimately, my
goal is to share all of my
story. No one- not one single, solitary
person- knows this story. Some people
know bits and pieces- very, very few people know some of the big stuff. Eventually, I’m going to share it, here. Keep reading, and you’ll know me. Ultimately, I hope to help someone. I know that some of the things I have to say
are going to be difficult to read, that sometimes you will feel sympathy and
sometimes you will feel frustration and sometimes you will feel confused-
sometimes, you won’t like me or understand me.
I can only ask that you be patient and understand that my singular goal
in sharing with you is to help. I hope
to inspire, to inform, to change viewpoints.
I hope to support and to advise and to amuse. I hope that somehow, in some way, my story
helps somebody- so, please. Pass it
along. Help me to reach the people that
need to hear what I have to say.
I should warn you. I
imagine that some of you know me, somehow, and that’s awesome. I want to help you understand me a little bit
better. So I should let you know right
now, that this blog is going to be a slightly different side than you
know. I guarantee it. Yeah, I’m still going to be myself. But if you’re looking for the comedic stuff I
normally come out with or the sarcastic sass, I’m telling you right now: you’re
looking in the wrong place. I love to
make people laugh, and I’m so glad I was so blessed with the ability to do
it. Hopefully some of the stuff I’m
going to post on here will do that, but that’s not the goal. If that’s what you want, do yourself a
favor. Follow me on twitter. Add me on facebook. Subscribe to my Instagram. (Actually, you could probably skip that
one. I think I’ve used Instagram, like,
six times in the last year. Hashtag
oops.) If you decide that you want to
know where the hilarity comes from, check here.
There, I promise to be funny.
Here, I promise to be honest.
I’m so so very excited to take this journey with you. Here’s to the first step.
